No one knows how we feel until you have been down that road, even then each situation is unique. When peolpe ask you how yourmum/da/partner is feeling, they ask out of kindness and politeness. It really would not be fair on them to tell them how you really feel, they would feel embarrassed wishing they had never asked in the first place. You have to deal with your anger and guilt about the situation, angry cause you do not really understand maybe why and guilty because at times you wish the nightmare was over. I suppose they are all normalfeelings. That is the great thing about this forum,people do understand without you having to say anything, they know things because they have been through it.
worried girl you were such a credit to your mum being with her until the end. I know you still have your little doubts of did i do enough? and what ifs.... You could not have done any more and the fact that you are still her helping others is great...becuase your information is priceless to others, you are always there wanting to give that little bit more, it is very much appreciated, thank you.
As children of alcoholics we are left feeling a little inadequate amongst other thing, our parent have the habit of bringing our mood down by a small comment or such like. I only hope i can learn from what I have been through, to be a good caring person who considers others feelings and gets on with life coping with the ups and downs that comes along.