Just feel like complaining today, I guess. 23 year old son is having a tough time and doing some distructive things. He is bi-polar and not taking his meds, self medicating and making lousy choices. None of which I can do anything about
, but I have a low back ache that I am sure is stress related.
Supposed to take a 3 hour drive up to camp tonight. Uggh. How to ruin a perfectly good weekend. Part of the stress is coming up on a year. Its only weeks away, and I am just not ready. My plan (yes, plan, I can hear God laughing at that ) was to disperse the cremains on the anniversary the way he wanted me to. He didn't say when, though. I thought I would be ready at a year. Now I am not so sure. How can it possibly be a year anyway? Did n't this just all happen the other day?
Just when you think you are gaining a little ground, it comes crashing in again.
Okay, I'm done now