I want to thank you for your post. I read it the day you posted and it really helped me out. Put things in perspective. The following day I walked out of the office at mid day and just sat at a park bench and just enjoyed the view and the people having fun with their kids, the animals, the birds....sounds corny and like a movie (Sorry) but it's true. I took a breather so to speak, I had been so stressed out at work and coming home only to eat dinner, shower and sleep. I had cut out all hobbys, going out with friends, visiting family, asking my sister how her college experience is going, reading up on history which I love...I lost sight of all of that. I was so busy at work thinking money and all the things that come with it is what brings happiness. You really struck a chord when you said that you would enjoy the finer things and drink to get away from it all. I am headed down the same path...your post really was a slap of reality.
Being a "young, single" guy I was sent to California to represent our company in a networking event. It was a week long event in which during that time it was my nieces birthday and my parents anniversary. I was given stipends for dinners, all the free drinks I could have...but at the end of the night after calling my parents to wish them a great anniversary and my niece a happy birthday, I sat alone in a hotel room with a beer on the other side of the country watching re-runs of Happy Days...I have to say is a very sobering experience.
Truth be told, I find myself wanting to turn back time and do things so different. But I know I can't...I would read every thread on this forum and just learn from everyone. But after your post I took a day off to clear my mind. Only to keep it going another day...then I had a bad day and read other sources that would point our worst case scenarios....So I stopped researching altogether and didn't come back on til now. It's not that I got busy, it's not that I stopped caring in fact I've been depressed about
it more than ever. But I figured if I stop reading, if I stop thinking...it's not real. I thought I could block it out...but it doesn't work that way. I just wanted things to be "normal" for a while.
This is the best forum I have ever found and I appreciate everyones input so much. From Connie who was the first person that made me feel at ease, to all the familiar names that have kept up with my story. It really is a breath of fresh air. The power of words is amazing, what you type here can have a huge impact on someone elses lives, so thank you.
As an update, my dad is going for his health exams on Monday. This I was told will determine if he is healthy enough for a transplant (Wish us luck) I plan on being there with him.
Currently I blew off a late night prospect meeting and am having dinner with my folks.
To the things that really matter...wishing everyone health and happiness.