Even though I never met Connie in person, she has been a daily presence in my life since I found this forum in October, 2010. My husband had been diagnosed with alcoholic cirrhosis. I was ignorant about
liver disease and scared out of my mind.
Connie reached out over the forum and held my hand through the hardest time of my life. She shared her knowledge and experience. She was encouraging. She told truths.
She could be fun and fun loving, but serious as was needed so many times with this serious disease.
Connie was so giving of herself, answering posts at all hours, letting folks know when she would be away and wouldn't be able to answer promptly.
Connie was a true teacher. Teaching about
liver disease. Teaching about
sobriety. So many of the things she taught me, no one else has ever mentioned before or since. Connie helped me and lifted me up so many times, she has certainly helped to make me a stronger woman. She helped me to see my personal growth, even when it wasn't apparent to myself.
At a time when my husband slipped (and he has had a few), she helped me to see that this was not my fault...because I had expressed shame and feelings of failure about
his inability to keep with his sobriety. Connie was very vocal about
her belief in AA. This belief led me to Al-Anon. I have been attending for 18 months, and this has helped me a great deal. I will always be thankful to Connie for this. My husband now attends AA. And while there may be struggles with his sobriety in the future, I am okay with this uncertainty because Connie helped me to learn how to sift through a mixed multitude of feelings to be able to identify what is most important to me, and how to define and protect my boundaries.
Connie shared so much of herself. Reaching out and helping the members and lurkers on this forum. And all the while suffering from this horrible disease and other ailments herself.
She was one of the strongest individuals I have ever "met".
Connie was always here. Even though she has passed, she will continue to always be here. She was so much the heart of the forum. Her words of love and encouragement, words of knowledge and advice, words of consolation and hope, are still here for all to read and learn from. We can all still see her signature, "But that was yesterday, and I was a different person then." Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland. And receive her written "Hugs" sign off.
RIP dear Connie. My heart is heavy with sadness and I will miss you greatly.
On brave wings she flies. A new angel in Heaven. A new star in the sky. May her journey of light continue.
Post Edited (healthynow) : 12/10/2013 1:55:27 PM (GMT-7)