Hey S&S! No problem, I don't mind the questions at all. Robert was my fiance - we were together for just short of 15 years. He had just turned 49 when he died. As for his MELD, it was probably in the 50s - he was in total renal failure and liver failure/rejection. I found him on the floor when I woke up on Jan. 31st (this year). I grabbed him under the arm, trying to pick him up and he yelled, "Stop it!" - that was the last thing he ever said. I never had another chance to talk to him - they gave him Propofol in the E.R. so they could intubate him because his blood oxygen level was at 39%. He lapsed into a deep coma shortly after. He was in the coma for 11 days and died on Feb. 11th. Robert had a liver transplant on 11/04/2012. He was doing great for awhile, but then the HepC came back with a vengeance, became very aggressive and destroyed his new liver.
Only my humble opinion, but I think you should let your son see your Dad while he is still 'ok' - you will never regret it, believe me. My younger son (15) decided not to see Robert (his step-dad, but no father/son were ever closer) when he was in the coma. I left it up to him, but he wanted to remember him the way he was. My older son (20) went once - and he barely held it together. Robert was estranged from his family (for VERY good reason), but I allowed them to say their goodbyes over the phone - not that they deserved it, but I decided to take the 'high road'.
And yes, I do believe that Robert is still with me. I ran head-on into a tree two weeks to the day after he died, totaling the car. I felt his warmth and heard his voice clear as day. I was able to calm down and shut the ignition off, like he told me (the throttle was stuck wide
open). Some people might think it's stupid or not believe me - but I don't care, it happened.
Well that ended up being pretty long-winded - but you asked!
Like I said, I don't mind at all. I still cry every single day, whether I talk about
him or not. Just wish he was still here.....