Simon, I believe that knowledge is power. The more you have, the better equipped you are to deal with your personal problem. However, it is not a good idea to dwell on your poor health and your pain, either. Reading is a great distraction. I find the same with being online. There are also a couple of young singers I am entranced by, and go to their web sites constantly. Have made some good friends that way, some of whom I have met personally, and have gone to some concerts when I was feeling better. I guess we have to find a "happy medium."
Are you a candidate for a transplant? Or do they not do transplants on patients with cirrhosis? I guess Lerie would know the answer to this.
Simon, my prayers are with you. I hope you will come back and post again.