Posted 5/3/2018 5:01 AM (GMT -6)
Yes, this has been very supportive for me. Thank you so much. I talked to a cancer survivor a few months ago and we realized that we both went through the same thought process. We are about the same age. The numbers they threw out for life expectancy was sort of irrelevant to us. The big scary thing was actually being confronted with the reality that life is finite, that we will end, whether it is today, in a few months, years, or even in 40+ years. We were both sort of living our lives like we would live forever. We took things and people for granted. We made rather unhealthy choices about food, drinks, activities, work, sleep, etc. knowing that life is finite felt so heavy at first but now we see it as motivation to do the things that matter most because tomorrow is not promised. So I actually feel more alive after being diagnosed with this disease. It’s hard to explain but the disease doesn’t seem to be limiting me. Rather it feels like it opened so many doors for me to live my life how I should have all along. The dietary changes and increased sleep and decreased work have resulted in me really feeling wonderful. And nobody knows what good things or bad things are in our future. New treatments and cure are discovered every day. Catastrophe strikes without warning. I don’t really feel any less fortunate than others around me. And I really do feel blessed that I have made these positive changes. You know something happened at work yesterday that would have sent me spiraling out of control in the past. But I have my emotions more in check now so it was barely a blip for me. I’m not sure if this makes sense. But I really do appreciate everything you have said on here. In my times of despair and confusion you helped put things in perspective and find the hope.