sorry your going through a depression judy,,,,i suffer from depression though not for the same reasons as you. Im glad your allowing yourself time to feel better and blocking out the outside world for a while,,,but i hope that doesnt last long. as far as christmas goes, I know ppl get stressed out,but its not supposed to be a time of stress ,it should be a time of togetherness,and feeling love with your family and friends,,,im not sure what your childrens expectations would be of you ,,but mine are getting chili for christmas eve dinner:) easier for me to deal with,less dishes and they love it,,not to mention that they eat at other places and its something different for moms meal:) my kids enjoy my meals because they never know from one holiday to another what to expect from me. one year,,i had worked a lot of hours(boss was gone for a month) and i didnt have time to wrap my presents to my kids,so i just started throwing bags out of the bedroom! lol they will never forget mom winging bags to them from the bedroom door and it didnt take away from the Christmas spirit at all :) so maybe instead of "cancelling" Christmas festivities,,,make them easy and fun :) might make you feel better too,,hope today is better then yesterday for you ,,take care
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body,but rather to skid in sideways,chocolate in one hand,wine in the other,body used up ,totally worn out and screaming"WOOOOHOO WHAT A RIDE!!!"