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Date Joined Feb 2007
Total Posts : 7
   Posted 2/22/2007 10:00 AM (GMT -7)   
I appear to be a normal, well adjusted, succesful 24 year old.  I have a pretty decent job a nice home and a fabulous partner.  That is all on the outside.  On the inside, I CONSTANTLY fear for my life.  If I feel a slight twitch i am sure it is the sign of a chronic and deadly disease that will rob me of my life.
I am in constant fear that i am going to die, or that my partner will get in a car accident or other random things.
Most recently ( what i like to call my "death of the day") I have been consumed and convinced that i have a brain tomor AND i have a blood clot in my brain...I think was brought on by my partners aunt recently dieing of a brain hemmorage..she woke up one morning had a HORRIBLE headache and it got worse and worse, and ended up telling my partners cousin ( her daughter) to call the the time she got to the hospital she was brain dead ...P.S. this was 1 day after Thansgiving
What brought my problem on you ask?
I have now been on antibiotics for 1 month for a sinus infection that woudl JUST NOT go away.  so my doctor prescribed biaxin for the first two runs and now has me on bactrim,which really seems to be working ( no more headaches which I am sure are a stroke, and no more facial pain or jaw pain..which i am sure is a heart attack)..good right....
well these last couple of days i have been feeling a pain in the left upper shoulder, similiar to a pinched nerve feeling.  well last ngiht I noticed the pain was not there, I had NO syptoms of ANYTHING and everythign was going great!  All ofa sudden when i was removing my head band, I touch the base of my slukk on the leftside ( behind my left ear) and it ofcourse I kept touching it, and it got worse. I tried to brush it off and actually ended up being able to fall asleep.  Well this mornign I woke up and found the pain DID NOT go away and in fact worsened, and is now more tender.  So i am now sure of one of two thigs....I ahve a pinched nerve, or a blod clot.
This is sick, and I feel so alone.  My family tries to soothe me, and bless my partners heart, she has no clue what to do.  I feel lost.
These past two years i have been to the emergency room 3 times.
1). shortness of breath..which i still get now and then( not near as bad)
2). Chest pain...where an EKG was performed and came back when i ave chest pain I have to remind myself I already had the EKG and I end up calming down
3). dizziness and disorientation( turned out by glasses prescription needed updating).
More recently ( which was part of the sinus infection) I had tingly feelings on both sides of my head which I was sure was a lack of oxygen getting to my brain...
I am just tired, I am soo tired, PLEASE HELP ME, I just want to be normal.  what can I I need a physciatrist?
I definintley suffer from anxiety to some degree. i am very high strung, and do get nervous when I experience ANY symptom..which in turns makes it worse.

Update: I just got off of the phone with my doctor ( he asked that I call him when i was half way through with my meds) so i thought I woudl kill two birds with one stone and i asked him about the pain at the base fo my skull..he said it sound like a muscular skeletal thing,a nd I should apply a warm or cold compress and take an ibuprohin ( did I mention I HATE pills) and often fell like my throat is clogged.....

In any event, I know somethign in my brain is causing all of this, whether it is depression, anxietly, or what...I fell like a loser.....I do nto know any other people my age sufferign from this, and I do nto knwo what to do. I was on lexapro which my insurance did nto cover so my doc switched me to a lower generic. Then I relocated ( for work) and got a new doc ( which he is wonderful) and we have not dicsussed anti-depressants....I really do nto know

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Date Joined Mar 2006
Total Posts : 605
   Posted 2/22/2007 12:02 PM (GMT -7)   
hello and welcome,
I am not sure this is the right forum ,but I will try to help you. First of all,I think its time to explain all this to your dr,,,,,,,,,dont hold back,,,,TELL HIM ALL,,,,you may need some kind of medication to ease your nerves(which can cause physical symptoms),,,going off of antidepressants,is NOT good for you,especially if you did it all at once.. good luch
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Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body,but rather to skid in sideways,chocolate in one hand,wine in the other,body used up ,totally worn out and screaming"WOOOOHOO WHAT A RIDE!!!" 

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