Thank you all for the advice, empathy and support. It makes me feel so much better to come here and find people care and understand (((thanks all)))
Canyonbabe..they do prescribe Endep for IBS? I'm glad my doc isn't a complete nutter. Sadly I just cannot take anti-depressants. It makes my symptoms worse and turns me absolutley loopy. I'm in the same crazy boat as Lady Frog (well not crazy, just personality switch!). I have put myself on the waiting list for a new doctor, but it is generally a two month wait. I will not go back to see him again. He did say the IBS was my fault, he said I needed to change careers and calm down. ???
I usually take valium or xanax for my anxiety problems but because I was given the Endep my doc wouldn't prescribe me any valium. He said the Endep would calm me down (that's when alarm bells started ringing about the endep being an anti-dep).
I have been taking hot baths, eating light soups and getting massages from my beleaugured boyfriend! I'm getting accupuncture tommorow which often helps. I've never tried meditating in the toilet before! I think my happy place might be a beach in spain next to a big library (I'm a bookworm too) but the guys might need to be wearing boardshorts. Speedos? Ugh!
Thanks again guys, your support means the world..now off to re-heat my heat packs I go!