Posted 10/15/2011 6:12 PM (GMT -7)
Hi everyone it's been awhile since I've posted anything,I'm here just to vent.Everyone I'm so angry tired and fed up with dealing with IBS!!!!! I've been trying to not allow it to have power over me like making me feel so sad and depressed. I feel so alone I've been praying like crazy that the Lord will heal me and deliver me from this stupid gross disorder! Things have just been getting worse for me I do not know how to live my life with this dam disorder!!!! I'm living a life of solitude isolating myself from others.The way things are going with my IBS I continue to isolate myself and keep myself indoors.I do not go to any functions or gatherings where there are a lot of people.I'm afraid to, it seems like with my IBS I'm having bowel movements through out the day especially when I get up I have several of them before heading out to face the day.I feel I'm living a life of a hermit.I'm to young to not have a social life I'm always afraid to allow someone new into my life and maybe having to share when I'm ready that I have IBS.When someone invites me out somewhere a few times and I have to make up some excuse why I dread.I do not want to live like this anymore!!!!!,I hate having IBS it's constantly on my mind I worry so much to where I feel sad and depressed over it.I'm not losing any weight it's just that if I eat a lot or over indulge in some kind of food I may pay for it the next day.I feel so alone in this battle of my life.I feel like giving up on my life just laying down and just dying.I get angry sometimes at God asking him why am I going through all this mess that make me feel not like myself at all.Because of it I have several mental health illnesses one in particular anxiety and paranoia I hate feeling those ways.I just ask you guys to please keep me in your prayers as I do you all.My faith will never end that God will heal me and deliver me from all this mess that is my life in Jesus name we pray amen!!!