I just need to put it out there somewhere that I am so tired of all this IBS stomach crap. I feel angry sometimes that I have to deal with this all the time. I take Phenergan just to eat and Librox at least once a day to stop the cramping and pain. My husband does not want to hear about
it so I have been keeping my mouth shut. We were away for his birthday last week and we try to eat only at restaurants we can trust. I ate something I have had before, it turns out they changed the recipe and so for a few hours on his 60th birthday I spent on the floor of a hotel with vomitting and stomach cramps. He never woke up. When he saw me that morning I look like I had had a rough night but he missed it and doesn't quite seem to get how debilitating it is. My throat and abdomen were sore for days afterwards. I act like nothing is wrong when what I really want to do is curl up in bed with a heating pad on my stomach and just calm down. Instead I keep going. Even when I have to keep going to the bathroom while we are out I act like its not so bad when it really is sucking the life out of me. I find that I am angry at him because he doesn't want to hear about
it but sometimes I would just like to stop and lie down for a while without feeling like I am being judged. I don't want to whine but I also don't want to have to keep pretending everything is fine when I feel like I am about
to throw up. He thinks its always from what I ate and quiet frankly sometimes it just seems arbitrary. If I do get a bad bout the first question is what did you eat? Like I want to do this to myself. I want to cry but I can't because then I would be acting like a baby.