I'm a 17 year old girl and have been struggling with this since I was a little girl. Currently I have not had a bowel movement in 1-2 weeks, I'm not sure how long it has been. It is painful for me to try to go right now, because the feces it to large to pass (I would guess about 3 inches in diameter). i have passed feces this large before, but it takes me a few days and i end up have to use a laxative that just pushes it right out without my control, which is very painful. Is there something I can do to pass this without taking a laxative? Laxatives scare me, and end up causing diarrhea for about a day so once i take a laxative, I cannot do anything or go anywhere for almost 2 days. This entire situation scares me to death... can there be some sort of 'illness' that causes me to not have regular bowel movements? I feel like I don't have to go until I got to this stage, where it is to painful to bare. Plus, I know that I have a lot of extra weight in my body just due to the fact that I do not have regular bowel movements. Any information can help, and going to the doctor is not an option for me. Maybe there is some products I can use to help me become more regular after this bowel movement passes? But right now, all I want and need to do is figure out how to pass this bowel movement. (By the way when I push, while im on the toilet, nothing is really happening, but the feces is trying to push its way out when im not on the toilet but I hold it in becuase I am scared to death to try and go) Please help!