Posted 4/26/2013 2:35 PM (GMT -6)
Hi there, hopefully you understand atleast half of this ! (Bad English inc)
Now i'm sitting here again, or, I do at least right now! most of the time I run from the couch to the toilet, this time it has only been for an hour or so, usually i do the runs between 1 and 5 hours. I called my doctor today in I was almost to his knees crying for help. She could do nothing. Besides offering the coloscop. examination (spell?) is not an option for me.I'd better explain.
From one moment to the next, I had extreme abdominal pain, and the pain continued single day, followed by very diarrhea.
I was scared to death, I've called the hospital, different doctors etc. alot to get just a few answers or explanations. I've been through different kinds of meds for upset stomach, too much acid, IBS so on and forth.
After half a year's time it all kind of changed. I went toilet around every third day, and the day where i didnt have to go (or couldnt) , I felt great. The 4th Day however, where I finally had to go, i ended up going 5-6 times throughout the day, with loose stools. Because I didnt went the past 3 previous days.
I got blood tests taken, they tested for everything, liver and intestine, blood sugar etc. Everything was absolutely perfect, in fact, so perfect my doctor was amazed at how great they all looked.
It took another six months .. A second blood sample was taken. Again everything was fine. So we tried a stool sample to test for any kind of Bacteria - Nothing there, there was nothing to find. Everything was as it should.
Meanwhile, throughout the 3 days where i normally couldnt go, but was ''lucky'' anyway i experienced alot of mucous that came with a both clear but sometimes brownish tint - A few times I also found a very small amount of blood in the mucous.
I'm a girl who has been suffering from GAD and Panic disorders since the age of 6, but never had issues like these before. My anxiety is alot about being Incredibly afraid of stomach flues (Its funny how i now have an actual issues with my stomach!) So ofc. I'm on a daily basis sitting here crying my eyes out to my fiancee about the fear of cancer. - Also i'm insanely afraid of getting sick in the matter of throwing up, or having diarreah! So the examination where you have to either drink soemthing or take a pill to clean out your intestines to have a look ''up there'' Is out of the question, and that puts me in a major dilemma that im sure you understand.
My doctor however, who has known me since i was born, told me it is insanely rare that people in my age group experience this kind of cancer, but again, my anxiety strikes me with ''what if's'' and ''i do have all the symptoms of it'' etc.
I called around to other doctors to tell and explain - They all said the same as my own doctor - That they were positive it isn't cancer. Especially because it has been going on as long as it has and and im still up and breathing. - But ..again ''what if !?''
Now I sit here again - A day of extreme stomach discomfort, a few weeks ago it all changed once again. - I usually now go to the toilet every day, but i ALWAYS experience mucous, and it is generally very loose stools, or very small hard ''balls'' i get to fire off - But this is probably the worst - EVERY single time I have eaten, and it really doesnt matter WHAT I've eaten and not eaten, what ive been drinking and not drinking of the particulary day (I've been written down almost ever day) I end up in lookling like im expecting in a month or so, And feel like a balloon ready to go off . It's so bad I can not feel comfortable sitting , standing, lying or walking. It is worse in the evening and at night ALWAYS really bad right when I wake up and half an hour ahead. After which it gets easier on me.
It makes no sense that it should be something with the diet - i tried to eat really greasy food and there was absolutely no problem - I have tried to eat healthy where it suddenly WAS a problem.
I am generally a happy girl even with so many issues i loves sports and to socialize me with the family. But I can't do any of this anymore, simply because my stomach basically ruins almost every single day for me.
I am starting to go down with the flag to say the least, I can't go out and live the life i have, I'm anxious all the time because of what happens, and if im not anxious i'm already sitting on the toilet crying my eyes out because of the discomfort, and I have no control over it, I hardly dare to sleep or eat because I know how I get to when I wake up, or eat.
I'm hopeless and incredibly scared that something in my stomach will end up killing me. - I've lost a little weight ( Im not that big of a girl) and my new blood samples are showing im not eating as i should (Blood sugar is low) etc.
I do not know what to do, I have searched through all the places they reject me and / or tell me that I just have to pull myself together to get those tests done, but i cannot force myself to drink the liquid or take the pill that will make my stomach go nuts on me, so i can be examined, i just cant, its like asking me to jump up to the moon using only my tongue! - I feel extremely alone in all of this.
My fiancee is always trying to be there for me, he even offers to go to the toilet when I have an upset stomach because he knows I sit and cry of fear and anxiety in there when it happens. But he can't fix it...
I've startet to burp EXTREMLY much, very late at night, and if im not burping, the problem goes the other way (Read above) And I'm not exaggerating when I write that I sound like the worst sailor out there burping every 5 second when I get these 'attacks' - It hurts the top of the stomach when burping as much as i do those nights. - My appetite is still fine, however i feel full very very early.
Now i ended up in here, and ive been reading a bit and thought that you might have some advices, or comforting words or ANYTHING i could possibly use to help me in all this mess. - I've getting a lactose intolerant test taken (And gluten) And im tolerant in both.
I forgot to mention i suffer from Endometriosis too.
I greatly apologize for my very bad grammar and in general bad English.
Hoping for some help.
Thanks in advance.