First; I have never tried boosts or any of those nutritional drinks, I will give them a try today. I know I cannot have gatorade, it makes me sick. I tried broth but it makes my stomach upset.
Second; My professors do not know about this problem, they already are having problems with me because of CART (A service for the deaf), they have tried working aroundd that and if I start missing more days I'll be flunked. I don't have the self discipline to do online classes, I get home and I just want to clean the house, I don't have any good workspace at the house and the whole house stresses me out.
Thirdly; I have had stool tests to check for parasites, bacteria etc. Everything always comes back negative and fine and I'm always told that it's just my bowels being agetated and I need to cut back on vegetables, fruits, blah blah blah blah..Sometimes they say, well you might have bacteria in your intestines blah blah and then they give me antibiotics but those make my bowels really touchy and it hurts..it's almost like urinating..but out the number two..with bad smells.. so..NO antibiotics for me.
Fourthly; My food allergies are quite extensive. It started out to where it was various common items; onions, tomatoes, peppers, etc. Basically anything that is a vegetable. Later I was told that I needed to avoid dairy as well, it was making me extremely ill. I went through a list of things not to eat, vegetables, anything high in fats, no sugars, no caffiene, no grains of any kind, nothing high in sodium etc. I work a lot and go to class so I'm not home a lot meaning I have to find things to eat out, so I always got boring things like a subway sandwhich with just italian bread and turkey, no dressings, no cheese etc. But that irritated my bowels anyway. So I stuck with drinking a ton of water and finding other plain foods to eat. Over this last weekend on Saurday I ate something that sent me over the edge, I don't know if it was the omlette or what, I know better than to eat eggs but I figured it wouldn't hurt to have one or two bites. Either it was the omlette or the couscous, I don't know. Ever since Saturday it's been getting way worse, literally everything I eat makes me sick.
It's confusing. I wonder sometimes what it would be like to just eat anything I want. I am pretty hungry right now so i'll just grab a box of Kix and stare at it until I get the sensation or the mental idea that I'm full. lol
Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than ... your hopes, your fears -JW .