sorry i had this for so long that this will turn out to be somewhat of a short story because i want to explain all of it. Here goes... it all started when i first went to college about 2 years ago and i made a lot of friends there and hung out with them a lot. I stayed up all night with people around me all the time, even in the day. Since there was always someone around i kind of forced myself to hold in my gas whenever i wanted to fart because i didn't want to embarrass myself, especially during class. also classes were getting harder and i had no idea what major i wanted so i think stress was also a big contributor. i think this was when it all started. I held it in so much that i started having pain in the lower abdomen and sweating and excess oil production occurred on my face, probably from trying to hold it in so hard. This is the point where i had problems pooping. I would sit there for probably 5 minutes or so and if nothing comes out i would just leave and deal with the irritation. Since i didnt know what it was at the time, i took some pills that made me have diarrhea( i think ex-lax) and i took probably 5 or so boxes containing probably around 25 tablets of these. They made it better for a little while, but in the long run, it hurt more than helped. Whenever i couldn't go at all, even with the pills, i felt like i wanted to die. So along with the stress from school, embarrassment from farting in the presence of others (and mentally developing a way to hold in my gas) and stupidly taking those pills, i realized that my condition worsened.
last year, i saw a speacialist and he said i had symptoms of Irritable Bowel Syndrome(the constipated version), and i even went through a colonoscopy. the doc found nothing wrong with my digestive system and said that there were a few small hemorrhages(probably from me holding in my gas too much), but there was no problem. He just prescribed me some medicine that didn't work so i didn't bother seeing him again. My condition now is the same as ever, if not worse. Let me tell you my routine of the day. i will start at night, where i will try to go to sleep, but i have that feeling of wanting to poop, i sit on the toilet for 15 to 20 minutes(this is when im lucky that it comes out in that time range, usually i sit on the toilet up to half an hour) and if nothing comes out, i just try to go to sleep. Also i can't lie straight on my back because that makes me feel so uncomfortable, so i lift up one of my legs to relieve it, and surprisingly it does make me feel a bit better. Usually i lie on my side, and not just any side, it has to be on my left side, so that i can pass some gas since its nearly impossible for me to fart when im lying on my back. When i fall asleep, i usually wake up around 2 or 3 and try to go again, but since i am kinda tired i only sit there until i almost fall asleep on the toilet, which is the point where i get off toilet and back to bed. Again i wake up, but around 4 or 5 to try again for 15-30 minutes and successful or not i go back to bed. Usually i get the most success during the morning around 6-8. In the afternoon it is decent, but at night, its the worst and the hardest time for me, especially when i try to go to sleep. Don't get me wrong, when i go, it's not a lot, actually its very little each time as if a normal person empties their intestine once or twice a day, i get little by little success at more than 9 times a day. My poop is usually hard and dark(i've heard from eating veggies) and sometimes they are very small pellets to small size poop compared to "normal" sized ones. After every meal i am able to poop at least 2 times between meals, but after dinner is the toughest time for me, i just dont know why. I've also discovered that drinking two cups of milk during one meal will give me instant diarrhea, maybe im also a bit lactose intolerant, but i found that if i drink just one cup of milk for each meal will help me with my excessive bowel movements. At night without the milk, i find it very hard for me to fart and also im just lying on my bed suffering from all the pain from my abdomen and even my anus.
Im sorry i have bored you guys for so long, thanks for reading. i just wanted to "get it out" so to speak. I have more to tell but i am very tired and i even feel the "urge" right now so im wrapping it up.