I'm just posting this pretty much to vent... I hate dumping on you guys all the time but I don't really know where else to "get this out" and you guys are great.
I have been having such a hard time lately... symptoms are going anywhere and everywhere and I don't know what my bathroom schedule will be like day to day. C... D... D... C... D... C... C... I can't keep up with it all. I have been so bad about keeping my symptom journal as everything is just a mess in my life right now. I spend about 12 hours a day on the computer looking for a job and the other 12 in pain not necessarily in that order.
I made an appt with my GI on June 9 because I am just done trying to deal with this as it is. I've had a little blood so I don't even know what that means anymore. For UC, people say see your doc if you have ANY blood and others say see your doc if you have A LOT of blood. I have had blood on and off for the past few months but nothing seems to point to "progression" so who knows. So figured the best thing to do is just make the darn appointment. I'm sure he is going to schedule a colonoscopy cause when I called his office the nurse said the computer shows its about that time but kind of scared to find out if it spread or something. I have been really bad about keeping up with my doctor just trying to fool myself that nothing is wrong. Don't follow my example. Bad bad Des!!
I need a vacation from reality!!!!!