I desperately need some hope and support.
I've posted my story before, so here is the short version:
First off, let me say that I have always had severe health anxiety.
Diarrhea started Feb. 1st. I was very anxious at the time, having PVC's and GERD symptoms. At first thought diarrhea was caused by reaction to GERD medicine. Made several ER trips for my heart and also for the diarrhea once I realized it was not caused by GERD med. Was admitted for testing and spent 3 days undergoing all sorts of tests- colonoscopy, upper endo, barium swallow, small bowel follow through, CT scan of abdomen and pelvis, ultrasounds, chest xray, blood work, etc. All negative (except for a benign tumor on my adrenal which caused me even more stress until I found out it was benign) now my GI specialist and PCP both say it is IBS. Always the worrier, I remain unconvinced.
I still have diarrhea every morning. My stomach rumbles and gurgles all the time. A few minutes after awakening, the rumbles start and I have to get to the bathroom. It is usually what I would call loose stools. Usually I go 2-3 times through the day. If I am having more stress, like have to go to doctor or husband upset then it gets worse. I also sometimes feel nauseous.
I don't understand how someone 38 years old with completely normal bm's just suddenly gets this. I have read that people who already have IBS are more symptomatic during stress but that stress itself does not cause IBS. But doesn't it start somewhere? I have had stomach aches and diarrhea before when I was extremely stressed, but the episodes were short-lived. I am completely stressed out and fearful over this. Is that why the D doesn't stop???
I looked on the internet (shame on me, know I shouldn't do this) and saw that carcinoid tumors can cause D. But since I had all those tests, they would've found one if that was my problem, right???
Oh, and my hair is falling out. I have lost weight- 20-25 pounds the first 2 months; but have been forcing myself to eat and have maintained same weight since April.
I'm so sick of this. If I could just believe it was really IBS and there isn't some deadly disease lurking I would feel better. I take acidopholus and calcium and feel that they do help- I'm not looking for a cure at the moment- just some reassurance that it really is IBS.
thanks for listening,