Big hugs to you. We all understand how you may be feeling. The emotional rollercoaster of dealing with symptoms, testing, diagnosis, medication, trial and error… Life is difficult enough as it is. But you know, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Just hang in there and do what you can to feel better 1 day at a time. Take your meds, do your yoga (or whatever), stick to a healthy diet, and try to keep a positive attitude. If you have to, your doc is probably able to offer you a finance plan. Don’t avoid treatment and/or testing because you don’t have the money. Your health is the most important thing you have.
During the times you are at work, shooting or out in the field, have you tried taking Immodium? Even before you head out it could be a good idea to pop a pill or 2 for preventative measures. It really does work. AND, because IBS is linked to anxiety, knowing you have taken Immodium might calm you down which helps with your symptoms.
I’m sorry you are going through such a tough time.
WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU