Hi Tiny, and welcome! I can't imagine the horror of dealing with D AND being a paraplegic on top of it. You must have some kind of strong will to deal with this for so long.
I primarily deal with C issues, but plenty of other people here at HW have D problems, so I expect they'll be along at some point to offer some helpful advice. I think we'll all crapped ourselves at some point in our lives (me included!) so don't worry about
posting on embarrassing issues. I hope you managed to get some rest last night, and again, welcome!