I've already posted this message on the diabetes board and panic board. I'm trying to get as many diverse answer as I can. (I am a regular on the panic board.) A little extra info, for the past 4 weeks, I've had to take on a lot of extra stress because my mom broke her ankle and I've had to do our office cleaning jobs w/o her and help her here at our house. However, she's doing more for herself than she was at first, so if my nerves are causing my problems, why NOW?
Anyway, here's what I posted on the other boards:
I hesitated to post this as I can see no way to explain without being a bit graphic...it's not something I'm comfortable talking about but it may help any underlying anxiety about it by talking about it. If you don't want to read this (it is gross!), please STOP NOW.
For the last 4-5 days, I've been having to go to the bathroom quite frequently. Today I've already been about 5-6 times. Some of my stools are solid mixed with a lot of liquid and then other times it's like watery mud sitting in the bottom of the toilet. The color is yellow basically (no blood thankfully!). I've been feeling extremely tired all over and am sleepy all day, no matter how much sleep I get! I am overweight (I weighed last night and I'm fatter than I've EVER been!). I am "borderline" diabetic and have been being way too lax with the sugar.... (I am not on diabetes meds) Thinking that my blood sugar might be too high has caused me to behave myself today as all I've drank is water and ate veg's and skinless chicken. I will continue to "be good" because now I'm freaked out by the constant diarrhea and extreme weight gain! Mom says I look puffy, so I may have some water gain as well as fat gain! I am not on my period nor is it due soon.
I lay on my bed for a few minutes just now and tried to cry cuz I feel rough and am worried. I don't want to have to go to doctor because I'm scared of colonoscopies and barium enemas and such. I don't think my anxiety disorder would let me do it!!!! I'm also leery of having all my meds washed out of my system. I'm afraid I'll have a setback with the GAD!
I am going to eat right and see what happens over the next few days. Mom says I should take metamucil like I used to do when I had a lot of diarrhea years ago to form bulk (I was diagnosed with IBS years ago and that's what the doc prescribed)
When I ate today, it wasn't very long before I was in the bathroom and I could see that some of what I had eaten was already leaving my system...
Any thoughts are welcome.
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