My dear old mongrel, Duchess, was put to sleep this afternoon. She was 15 at least but we do not know as I rescued her as a stray.
She was my life.
But in the past few days she was not well at all although this morning when I went to college she was ok.
I came back at lunchtime to feed my'girls' and Duch just collapsed at the food bowl, I carried her to the car and straight to the vet.
I had been so sick today, getting to college on time, I sat in the car for an hour and cried cos of the pain, the effort and exhaustion. I went in to try and work. I then started home but did a u-turn to the hospital to leave a note with the neuro and then came home via GP to pick up antibiotics.
And duchess was put down.
I lay beside her at the vets, crying, wondering did I give her a good 'doggy' life. A good friend was with me and the vet was wonderful.
I said my goodbyes and Mr Trayner took her off to be put to sleep and then brought her back and I cried into her soft cheeks and strokes her.
I was so ill, the chorea, dystonia and jiggs went MAD!
But I think it was a releif for duch, and I think that helped me. I HATE seeing suffering in all forms.
I am not sure how the next few days will be.
I am awful sick and awful depressed anyway.
Poor Duch, I hope there is a doggy heaven, God I hope I gave her a good life, everyone says I couldnt have given her a better one.
I wont like walking my chihuahua and not seeing my old girl with her.
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