I want to thank each and everyone of you for responding. I DO appreciate it VERY much. It is so hard for me. I do agree that if I actually knew what is wrong it will go a long way to helping me cope. Its the not knowing. And yes, the internet is a scary medium!!! I just feel so ill, thats all and all I am being given at present is painkillers which dont work and I am on a very high dose.
Again I woke with the awful buzzing in my head, all the left side of my head. I have felt it has been a result of doing FAR too much. The buzzing is always worse when I do too much.
College is proving too stressful with a tutor from HELL.
I also feel that a pleasant occupation and pleasant folk around would go a long way too. But of the latter virtually no one calls and I dont feel 'love' anywhere.
My twin, I find, at times very worrying for she is constantly ringing and very demanding and coming up with wild ideas like buying an eight berth caravan in Devon!!! We dont KNOW eight people between us,I am in a diff country to DEVON and she hopes to be too in the not too distant future..
I am always having to get her to think clearly and stay on track with her life. I find her actually 'sickeningly' worrying.
I just want to do my photography, but all this health stuff gets in the way.
I actually have no regime, its all contantly health, health health and keeping one step ahead of the pose.
I have health crisis most days, if its not the severe pain with gum disease, to having to go to be measured for special shoes (I have deformed feet! Ah, did I tell you that!!!), to traveling to have blood tests. Its just goes on and on and on.
Family, a very large one do nothing and never visit, ever, or hardly ever. And they do nothing of a practical nature.
Oh, at 6am I am moaning already.
I wake in agony and with profound depression. I DO know the depression eases off a bit as the morning deepens.
I feel crape every morning and have to 'reinvent' the thought processes as the hours pass, by mid afternoon, I sometimes have it right!!!
Sorry for moaning.
I spent the weekend shifting furniture and hundreds of potted plants and all my paintings, again hundreds out of the way of all the windows as the workmen are coming to hack away around all the windows to put new ones in. I live in social housing so have no choice and its like the artic here anyway with the rattling of everythibng when the wind blows.
It doesnt help that they bought windows too big and thus the hacking AND they wont be compensating me for the damage nor do any repainting of the walls I painted over the past two years.
I have seen the other apartments in mid-work, it has looked like bomb sites, next few days will not be pleasant.
Dog has gone to the doggie hotel as I was worried she'd freak.
I'll be the one freaking!
I am sorry, I am sure I will be more cheerful when this 'blip' is over, AND I get some idea of what may be happening.
Thanks again, and I rEALLY DO appreciate it very much.
Congenital Rubella Syndrome (CRS) Severely Deaf, Hypothyroidism, Pes Cavus, Crohns Disease, scoliolis, Hiatus hernia, diverticular disease, neuromuscular disorder (?parkinsons) movement disorder, ? another autoimmune disease.
150mcg tyroxine, 20mg pantoprazole, 10mg Cipramil, 500mg 2 3times a day Mesalazine, 3mg Entocort, 62.5 Sinemet, 30mg Tamazipam, mystatin, sudocream