Lousey weather is turning again. I can't sleep. Were supposed to get snow/ice storm over night and I can feel it creeping into my bones. I took vicodan earlier and percocet just now after laying in bed with heat on me for two hours. I can't wait for this winter to be over with!
Plus they came today and put my alert system in. You know the one. "i've fallen and I can't get up!" so I have this stupid plastic knecklace to wear around all the time. She said wear it under my clothes never take it off because I might forget to put it back on. Between the last month of hospitalizations and the people coming in to clean, now this I am beginning to think I'm fighting a loosing battle.
You know I guess there are times I can tell myself I'm really not that sick. Now all this equipment plus they handicapped my bathroom. It's hard for me to have my days of denial.
Somtimes we need days that make us feel (normal).
I'm sure they are just being extra careful because I live alone.
I'm feeling rather depressed about it all though. I do have a psychistrist or cologist or somthing that I can see. I don't know if they deal with chronic illness though. I imagine they do because he was recommened by the nurse that ordered all the equipment.I think I'm gonna try to make an appt: next week.
Maybe they can help me get my head on straight. I know alot of what we go thru deals with coping skills. So I think that is a goal I really need to work on.
anyway I couldn't sleep and thought maybe if I got up a little while it would help me get tired.
love and prayers
Lupus like symptoms, with pbc symptoms, stage 4 COPD w/CHF, Cancer survivor. Osteoporosis,osteoarthritis
Prednisone,Plaquanil800mg,vicodin 4x5mg,Evista60mg, Effexor 150mg, HCTZ25/Triamterene37.5mg,Xanax 1.0 x3,Singular,nitro spray, aciphex, percocet 10mg.x4.
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