...that'sthe name of a poem I'm working on about my struggle with Lupus thus far.
anyways lately I've been just that. I'm soooooooo sick of being sick right about now
earlier this month I had to have a colonoscopy b/c I was bleeding from my rectum ( i know TMI) Turns
out it was hemmorhoids and an anal fissure.
and as of this past weekend I had a lymph node become swollen on just the right side of my neck,the swelling has since gone away, but it's not completely gone.
None of my other nodes are swollen as of yet, but I am throroughly annoyed w/ myself and this illness.
There are days where I feel fine and others I feel like I'm gonna FLIPPIN' DIE!
My money is being syphoned into paying bills from procedures & doctor visits.
It seems like everyday something new pops up that is wrong with me, and my dr is soooooooo super quick to ship me off to another phy. that's gonna suck some more money out of me. I'm only 26 yrs old, I should be living it up. But I'm stuck with the sickness.h
Is there anyone in this forum who was diagnosed in their 20's, and could share the progress ( if any) that has been made since.
Should I just cut my losses now and apply for SSI disablity and give up my dream of going to culinary school to become a chef. b/c it seems the lupus thing has got me down for the count.