A magnificent new chihuahua joined me in my home today making my 'family' complete.
I had to walk Ana first at 6am and then friend drove me to the station and went on train to Limerick, which took over two hours, then I had to wait over one and half hours for the owner to arrive with Maggie Mai.
And then back to Dublin on train.
I felt absolutely ghastly, really ghastly.
My eyes were agony, really agony, no matter how often I doused them with natural tears.
they are a bit better here now at home.
Just as I got into the station in Dublin, even with a fantastic new dog to love, I felt like bursting into tears. I felt brutal depressed, I still cant get over how sick I am and I am truly frightened.
Will I ever feel that life is worth living?
Will I continually think of dying?
Will I be this depressed now until I do die? It just doesnt seem to lift.
Its really insidious. I feel it all over my body, if you know what I mean.
I now have two gorgeous dogs and they will be LOVED, but I as a human feel so unloved. I think if I did then I could bear some of this personal hell I am in.
oh cheryl, marji and ginny pics gone your way!
Congenital Rubella Syndrome (CRS) Severely Deaf, Pes Cavus, scoliolis, Hiatus hernia, diverticular disease, neuromuscular disorder, movement disorder, recently dxed as drug induced 2008 Crohns Disease 1996,Hypothyroidism 1998, Raynauds 2006, Sjogrens 2008, Lupus 2008, Chronic Muscle Myopaythy 2008, spine in very, very bad way dx 2008
Irish, not an illness!
100mcg tyroxine, 10mg Cipramil, 3mg Entocort, 30mg Tamazipam, mystatin, sudocream, neurontin 600mg, acidopolis, Vitamin B complex, Coenzyme Q10, Vitamin B12 injection, Nexium 40mg, Fortijuice.