I know how you feel . when i was first diagnosed with lupus i was only 21 going on 22... and it was really hard becuase i was always the type to go out withmy friends really late to the club and jsut stay out all night long and not have any problems.. then when i started getting really tired and exhaused just by doing normal things i thought it was weird along with everyone else i was hanging out with.. and when i wanted to stay home they thought that i was ditching them and didnt want to hang out with them anymore. and that was not the case at all. i was just sooooo tired!! and slept all the time.
well when i was diagnosed a couple months after my symptoms they all felt really bad and then they knew why i was acting that way, why i wanted to just sleep and stay home. and they were there for me came to see me in the hospital and were every supportive.
But you know there are some people out there who just dont understand and thats fine.. and i dont consider those people as my close friends. or really friends at all. The people that really care for you and really take the time to understand whats going on with you will sympathize with you and not make you feel gulity for having an illness.
I dont really care about the people who dont try to understand or just make me feel worse. you dont need those people in your life.
im lucky becuase i have a very supportive family and the most supportive bf to stand by me and to help me when im having a flare.
Surronf yourself with people who pick you up when you are down and not kick you when you are already feeling bad emtionally and physically.
I hope that you can keep your head up and try to keep your sprits up too when you arent feeling well. Ive been where you are and it only gets better when you think that it can only get worse.
Take Care and Good Luck with everything!!