Great topic Jennifer!!! You are a brave woman and this will help others.
YES! I did smoke. I wasn't a heavy smoker . . . less than a pack a day. When I finally put all the pieces together and realized that all my weird symptoms were Lupus . . . I realized that the ache in my chest could be the pulmonary lupus symptoms. It scared me to death because the only other person I knew with Lupus, died from lung issues. I stopped smoking immediately, cold turkey. I remember exactly where I was when I had my last cigarette and I felt ashamed for having smoked that last cig. I can't say I enjoyed it either.
Anyway . . . because I was so scared I had done damage to my own body, it was NOT hard to quit. I had visions of having severe medical issues which would require my husband and teenage kids to care for me and I felt so guilty and scared and selfish that it made quitting easy. It was like an electric current ran through me and a light was turned on. I really think that it was God helping me to help myself. I actually had prayed about
it a lot, but had no real desire or need to stop smoking until that point. Although I actually had quit smoking a couple other times for long periods, only to go back to smoking. Now its been many years since I quit.
I hope it is that easy for you!! I'm not saying I never wanted a cigarette. I really did . . . but it would have been like putting dog poo up to my mouth because I was so disgusted with it. I have had dreams so vivid that it was as though I had really had a smoke. I have to admit that I still enjoy standing outside next to someone who is smoking. LOL
GO FOR IT Jennifer !!! I don't think anyone here will lecture you. You just don't need that. You WILL quit when the time is right for you.
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