It's so hard with little babies. I didn't have too much trouble with mine because I could nurse back then. Burping my kids was always hard, especially with my youngest because hehad a very slender throat, according to the docs. I got to the point I had the doc show my husband and had him do it mostof the time. I had an old fashioned doc who told me toput rice cereal in the milk at night, so my sons slept through almost right away. But you can't do these things with Alex, so you have it extra hard.
Because you are worried about being a good parent tells me you are one. I know you've had it really really rough, not just with Alex early on, but withthe day to day,which I understand because I'm in the same boat. I hope your hubby can give you some time to rest and know that you are doing the best you can and in my book are pretty much superwoman!
And don't let the old hormones get to you, either. You are doing great, you did a great job pushing through and getting a good diagnosis for Alex and you are doing just fine, except that you deserve a huge Hawaiian vacation with a takealong nanny!
Much love to you and your family. Try not to let thnigs get you down. And try to rope in others to help. I know you'll get through this just fine, I have faith in you. Youare really really strong.
--Sometimes I think the surest sign that intelligent life exists elsewhere in the universe is that none of it has tried to contact us. Bill Watterson (1958-) cartoonist "Calvin and Hobbes"
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