I was thinking of you the other day and wondering where you had gone and if we'd hear from you again. I'm glad we have heard from you. It sounds like you need some support and understanding friends. That's why we're here.
I think all of us have struggled with hope and feeling insignifcant and downright depressed. How could we not? Lupus is horrible. No ifs ands or buts about it. I also went through feelings of complete hopelessness and thoughts of "I'm never going to come out of this. I'm never going to get better." It took a year of steady medication, less stress, and a lot of praying to bring me out of it. Many weeks and months of not being able to do the simplest of things. I felt like a freak. I also had to move back home with my mom. I was 26.
But you know what? I stuck it out. Life WAS worth living and dreams were worth having. I wanted to live as fully as possible despite my handicaps. You can do it too. You're a strong woman with a very intelligent mind. This too shall pass. Lupus = Patience. You can do this.
Like Carol and Rosie, I'm also a Believer. You have a powerful group of people here who can pray for you. You're getting those prayers tonight. That you can count on! I'm glad you opened up to us. I hope you feel our "cyber hugs" tonight. Rest well and get ready for tomorrow.
Lots of love,
I can do anything through Jesus Christ who strengthens me. I have learned in whatever state I am in,to be content. Phillipians 4:11-13
34 years old. Diagnosed with Lupus in 2000. Fibromyalgia, Anti-phospholipid syndrome(APS)(stroke, 2002), Sjogren's, Raynaud's, Libman Sach's Endocarditis, vasculitis, sacroiliitis, arthritis (neck), anxiety. Prednisone, Imuran, Coumadin, Clobazam, Amitriptyline, Didrocal, Cozaar, Zoloft, Neurontin, calcium, multi-vitamin, vitamin D, Magnesium, vitamin B6, Acidophilus