I agree, this disease sucks, mourning the life we once had is normal. The majority if not all of us have had many of the thoughts you have expressed, it's hard not to be depressed when you think back on all the things we once could do. My doctor literally looked at me not too long ago and told me the sooner you start letting go of some of this stress and things you have no control over the sooner medicines and I can start being of benefit to you. I was angry at him at first, but the more I thought of it the more I realized he's right, there are a lot of things I have no control over and stress and negative thoughts just make our disease worse, it's a given fact.
As someone stated why don't you hire a lawyer to assist you with your appeal? They will not get paid unless you are awarded SSD benefits, they will take some of the stress off of you. I am in the process of filing for SSD, after reading all the statistics about
getting accepted the first time around I hired a company to assist me, they have a 98% success rate and do not get paid unless I get SSD. The company's name is Allsup, the people are extremely nice and you can do everything over the phone and/or computer, again, they only get paid if you are awarded SSD and they will assist you in getting back SSD as well. Can't hurt to give them a call. Here's the link. http://www.allsup.com/about
I have a daughter your age, she will be 21 in December, who deals with severe depression, she tells me quite often she is ready to die, I tell her to please think about
those you would leave behind. Think about
how sad I would be, my life would never be the same, I'm not sure I could go on without her. We have friends that lost their son to suicide, it is a very sad situation, I remind her of what that family goes through, that always brings her back to reality. So, when you are feeling at your lowest, please think of your parents and what it would do to them. I'm sure it would truly break their heart. After everything they have done for you, do you want to leave them with a broken heart? Life is a beautiful thing, I'm sure your parents love you dearly.
If I can be of any help to you what so ever please don't hesitate to reach out to me, you have my shoulder to lean on, my ear is here to listen when ever you need it. Feel free to email me: firstname.lastname@example.org
Sending warm positive thoughts your way.
Lupus - 1997 Fibro - 2001 Sjorens - 2007 Raynauds - 2008
Plaquenil, Imuran, Prednisone, Synthroid,Topomax, Effexor, Noroc, Prilosec, Xanex, Elidel, Restasis,