Your prayers must have worked Marji. Woke up today with a better thinking mind. Lupus fog brain less intrusive. more capable to think. So many of you have fog brain. Why I didn't or couldn't have associated this with Lupus. I have a mental disorder called Dissociative Identity Disorder, and always the doctors believe that the depression I experience is normal for DID. Having bad mental days is associated with the disorder, and I am not so sure now. Sadness, or some other thing affecting me caused depression some times. and that part I understand, but not the depression and mental cycles that I experience with Lupus. This depression that I associate now with Lupus does not respond to antidepression meds. and the depression that I accompany with the mental incapacity doesn't make sense. I am confusing my own self.
But even in the midst of this brain fog due to Lupus, I can understand. and as you said, I do not have the control over Lupus, and what it does to me, but I can control my response to it.
Just had that one day of diarrhea yesterday. It seems to be gone today, and motivation is returning.
I need to tell my youngest daughter to drink more gatorade. she drinks bottled water all day, and she walks regularly for miles at a time. she needs the electrolytes as I do. I found quarts of gatorade the other day at the grocery store for a dollar each. I do feel better too for drinking all of them. can't afford them all the time, but sometimes.
Each day that I visit this forum, and read the problems that other people have had, each day is an education for me. Each day I am helped here. and helping other people also does a good thing. When I speak to people about resting and letting things go, it also gives me permission to allow myself to let things go.
This Lupus forum is a win, win situation.
many thanks Marji. Many many thanks.
Lupus diagnosed 1996, Fibromyalgia diagnosed 1996, Heart by-pass 1998, breast cancer 2000, stroke2002, vascular surgery 2005, heart attack in 2007, and had a stint put in, Sjogren's Syndrome 2008, Stroke 11-4-08
aspirin, multivitamin, Arthrotec , Meclazine , plaquinil, Metoclopomide, Doxepin , Metoprolol, synthroid, Amlodipine, Crestor, Lasinopril, Plavix, phenagrin, Restasis