Posted 2/3/2009 12:22 PM (GMT -6)
I have been back to the hospital again. My middle child, my daughter, has it in her head that she must do something about me. she says I forget my meds to take them sometimes. said my kids have to do something about me. and one of the things she wants to do is take charge over my life.
a home health agency just called me. did my daughter send it. she said the hospital contacted to them. so maybe it is ok.
how many times do any of you forget to take your meds sometimes. I take meds in the mornings and mid day and evernings. and sometimes i don't remember. for this she thinks I am doing badly. has talked my son into talking to my doctors because she believes myself unable to talk to my doctors. SHe doesn't know how hard it is to get these meds for myself. trying to juiggle medicaid and medicare and what they will or will not pay. why would i not take my meds, if I was trying so hard to get them.
I am really upset about this. and I usually I am not easily upset. I am scared.
the last time i had an episode. 1-22-09 was when i went to the hospital.
I have been diagnosed with MPD which is now called DID, or dissociative Idenity disorder. or multiple personalities. I had an episode. my grandson was with me. He called 911. the diagnoses at the hospital is "altered mental state". no stroke. just an episode. I could not remember for a few hours. maybe a day. it is called "losing time". i have always lost time. no one ever saw me before. now they have. and they mean to do something to me, for something I have done all their lives?
really scared. I have a commanche brother, and he is ready to come and get me if the needs to. and I would move to orlando florida. but his name is winterhawk. the only winterhawk in the phone book in orlando;) but he talked to them and told me that I did not have to leave my house yet. but he still I wishes that I would go down there so he could take care of me.
I just needed to vent. a home health agency just called me. they said they were notified by the hospital, and offered a CNA to do meds stuff, and do my housework. and laundry and stuff. a neurologist saw me at the hospital. they think it might be siezures. I think it is still my episodes. Dr. Peli is the neurologist I will go to, and he is trained in multiple personalities. my youngest daughter said that it was like i was living in a memory. I thought that it was 1963. my son was two years old in 1963, and I was pregnant with my oldest daughter. I have hid this from my entire family for all my life. I didnt want people to know that I lose time. and have not done it for a long time. but this time my grandson was with me and I can't hide it the rest of my life. they saw it happen.
just needed to talk to someone else about it.
thank you for listening
Lupus diagnosed 1996, Fibromyalgia diagnosed 1996, Heart by-pass 1998, breast cancer 2000, stroke2002, vascular surgery 2005, heart attack in 2007, and had a stint put in, Sjogren's Syndrome 2008, Stroke 11-4-08
aspirin, multivitamin, Arthrotec , Meclazine , plaquinil, Metoclopomide, Doxepin , Metoprolol, synthroid, Amlodipine, Crestor, Lasinopril, Plavix, phenagrin, Restasis