My dad came up to take away a car he was selling to my son that we couldn't afford to fix. He was really grumpy and is a dumper. I have been in the middle and it is really flipping me out that as his daughter he didn't notice me limping around the yard as I tried to assist him. He asked nothing about my health and was self consumed.
He brought his cousin who wanted to see my puppies since he has a small dog. I let my little chi puppies out and we both played with them in my fenced yard. My dad was growing stressed working on the car, and began ordering me around to get him tools.
Im so sad because I get so confused and I want to please everyone and I can't handle alot of confusion anymore because my memory is horrible and I rushed to get the tools so he wouldn't get mad and my worst neighbor came driving up speeding on our private dirt road and my puppies got out through the fence and went after the car. I didn't even see it and didn't hear it until my little dog started yelping. My neighbor rolled down her window and yelled "I ran over your dog". I came up upset and asked if she could at the very least get out of her car and lift my dog over the fence for me because I can't walk well, which she did before speeding off. She also ran over her sister in laws dog intheir own driveway and didn't even stop or acknowledge it and didn't even care when told. She has run over at least three dogs we know of.
Anyway, I had to have the dog put down and it took the last money I had. My boyfriend got home and yelled at me telling me that it was all my fault, that I was too stupid to even watch the dogs and I felt that way myself.
I'm so bad now, I just forget everything now, keys, I even locked myself out of my house that very morning. I feel just terrible. The cousin didn't do anything to stop the whole mess, I think he was day dreaming.
I have six acres and only two neighbors and there are two ways out from her house and my house is between them. THe dogs don't go after anything the other way but she cant stand driving the extra twelve feet. My other neighbors and even her own husband drive slow to make sure there are no dogs around and have never hit anyones dogs. The dogs started chasing the cars when the neighbors husband called them out to his truck when he was driving home because he liked them. He is a nice guy but I think it was bad for the dogs. The roads are deserted all day, but it seems like the minute I let thm out to play with them and let them run a little, which is why i have six acres, this woman comes along.
I'm just so sad this confusion and brain fog and forgetfulness cost my poor dog her life. It just happened so fast and I can't do two things at once anymore. I just can't stand the stress either and feel so bad. I'm sorry to unload, I just wish things were different. I don't know what's wrong with my head. I'm getting just like my mom and grandma. My hearing has been weird lately due to parotiditis and possible ear infections.
Thanks for listening. I'm sorry such a sad story. Its so frustrating because I don't want to be this way but often don't knowI"m forgettingsomething.
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