Thanks everyone. I lived the spoon theory yesterday
.After a long day at work, I had to nap, and then I received a call about
my dad misbehaving. I went to see my father to have a talk
with him and then returned home to get my house worked on. People who want to look at my house and goats tomorrow, don't need to walk through knee deep grass, so I had to mow. I then fed the animals, took a bath and ate icecream for dinner. I craweled into bed with pain between my shoulder blades so bad. I put a heating pad on and waited for the meds to start working. I thought to myself, I never thought I would be in this position when I was a young girl. I was a runner, training for the Boston marathon!!! Now I have pain and muscle spasms that take my breath away. I know I need to let go of what I was and embrace who I am now. It is a struggle .Now Is not all horrible. I met new friends like you. I am going to have a deep relationship with my beautiful 2 yr old grandaughter as I live with her and love on her. Soon, when I get home from work I can sit and rest! How I long to rest more. In truth I beg God to let me not
have to work such long hard hours. I don't know what to do about
working. My friends all look at me and say, "It's time for you to look at disability." Some days I believe that more than others. I don't know what to do, so I just put one foot in front of the other until the day is over. Sometimes I cry so hard because the work is too hard when I am so sick. Sometimes I think, "I have brain fog so bad, what if I mess up on this report?" I make more errors. Etc. God help me to get through this mess. I feel guilty whining like this when others have it so much worse. Carol has it so much worse. Bless all of you abundantly! Tammy
I have SLE, Raynauds, mitrol valve prolapse,Haushimotos thyroiditis.
Meds I'm on are Prednisone, Vitamin D, Hydroxchloiquin, amitriptylin, levoxyl, colchcine, mobic, flexeril, and lyrica
Rom 8:18-19 "I consider that my present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."