Your feelings are exactly what I experience every day too. I want to be strong for my husband but sometimes living up to that expectation is just too difficult on me. I need to be weak and needy! opening those taps and letting your feelings out is so important. That's why we cry - to relieve the stress and sadness. It's there for a purpose . It's also okay to be on anti-d's. We have to look after ourselves in every fashion. Mental wellness is equally important as physical wellness. If you can get in a better head-space you'll be amazed at how you can cope with your symptoms. I'm on Zoloft. It doesn't numb my emotions. I still cry, vent, get angry, frustrated, etc, but I'm more "even". The depression isn't as dark.
I'm seeing a psychiatrist on Thursday to help me figure out my PTSD, anxiety, depression issues. I know how important mental health is. I need it! Do what you have to to get well - all over .
Love ya Donna, we're here for you,
I can do anything through Jesus Christ who strengthens me. I have learned in whatever state I am in to be content.Phillipians4:11-13
35 years old. Diagnosed with Lupus in 2000. Fibromyalgia, Anti-phospholipid syndrome(APS)(stroke, 2002), Sjogren's, Raynaud's, Libman Sach's Endocarditis, vasculitis, sacroiliitis, arthritis (neck), anxiety, Chinook migraines. Prednisone, Imuran, Coumadin, Clobazam, Amitriptyline, Didrocal, Cozaar, Zoloft, Neurontin, calcium, multi-vitamin, vitamin D, Magnesium, vitamin B6, Acidophilus
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