Hi LTL, I'm sorry any of the bashing came in to this. truth is there always seems to be someone in our lives man woman brother sister mom dad boyfriend girlfriend. There is always someone that we need in our life when we are hurt and tired and afraid and for whatever reason they aren't able or willing to be there. God knows I've been hurt so many times since I got sick. I have family that live down the street and I can go for 2 months without seeing them. and if I didn't call them we would hardly speak. As for your husband I can't speak to that diretly. My husband died when I was 42. I started getting really sick when I was 48. I don't know how he would have handled it. I beleive God took him home first because he wouldn't have been able to cope with my disease. Not that he didn't love me enough but because he has severe problems from his times in vietnam. I have never met anyone since him and if you hang around here long you will notice I'm always trying to get someone to send me a warm body. It is good to have someone to hold your hand. you have to have that. Come here for all the support you need and and reach out to friends who are strong enough to handle your illness. They say if you need something done find the busiest person you can and ask them for help. It usually tends to be true. I'm not saying run out and find a boyfrineds because that isn't what you need right now. you'll just wind up disappointed cuz they didn't turn out to be what you thought. Like Pat said people go into remission all the time. DON"T even think about
giving up. Frankly the best thing you can do for yourself is work as hard as you can and lead as good of a life if you can. Also if your husband is moved out which if that is how he feels I would hope he did. You can get help with someone coming in to help around the house or help you with physical thearpy and give you someone to talk to. There are good aides and bad ones just find one that clicks for you. You are not alone. You will never be alone. When you get to know somepeople here share your email if you feel comfortable. I have made friends here that have saved my life. Look for a link on here called the spoon theory and those people that you are close to need to read it to understand what is going on with you. You need to worry about
working on you and let your husband work on him. It is not your fault you are sick. Don't do that to yourself. Don't make excuses for him.
welcome to the family