Dear Jo, I hope you and your husband pick a really light and easy or at the very least, FUN movie for your birthday.
Speaking of which, Happy Birthday, Sunshine!
Regarding the medical expenses. That really will weigh on your heart and mind, I understand. Our insurance is up at the end of the month, and well... Now, some readers may not like this approach, but.
You've got alot on your plate, as do your husband and children. Your responsibility is to get healthy. If you have no insurance, you may be forced to go to a facility that takes indigent care. We are fortunate here that all three of our majors, Cleveland Clinic, Univ. Hosp., and Metro, allow such patients. They even have set-ups where, if you need to, you and or your family, can stay in lovely accomodations during treatments. Okay, yada yada. But it is something to fall back on in a worse case if doctors won't see you.
Here's the part that some won't like... If you have insurance but can't afford deductibles and co-pays and such. Just keep going! The rest will all take care of itself. It really will. Just keep on going to all your appointments. There are so many services available to assist you. Keep your faith, keep on going, it will all sort itself out. You focus on getting healthy! (easy to say, harder to do, but not impossible. and when you feel overwhelmed by it, shout it out here and you'll feel that relief of, 'oh, it is okay.')
Hospital case workers or patient advocates, even a good disability attorney, can help find financial resources, help fill-out and submit paperwork, etc. The key is, you don't have to take it all on yourself. Nor your husband. Use the resorces to do the dirty work while you get healthy.
I have benefited from my husbands awesome indurance for the last 2.5 years. Our portion is miniscule. But, it is still in the 30K range. The good news is that once my disability is approved, the money from that will help pay off the back owed.
Jo, just keep the faith. Enjoy yoour birthday movies. You are in our prayers here in our house as I sure in so many others. And most importantly, thank you for sharing. Your attitude and strength, frustration, fear and faith have been helping me and I'm sure, so many others.