Being Chronically ill we all are going to tend to have some form of depression at times. Some may be chemical and some situational. I over the past pretty much 18 years have had guilt about being sick. it took a long time to get diagnosed and i have three kids who now are 19, 18 and 16. I served in the persian gulf and that is where i started having symptoms but i didn't think much of it, then having kids back to back of course i was fatigued. I was very fortunate to move back to my home town where i had my family doctor who had known me since birth (seriously) so he knew my personality... i thought i was a hypochondriac. my blood test were normal ...i would keep track of symptoms. and he put me on a med and said if it helped i had an auto immune problem. i stayed on it for 3 months to try it... i noticed with in two weeks i was feeling better. but the med methotrexate is wicked on your liver. my kids were young so i thought ok i will go off this med and just deal. and i did for quite some time. with no real dx. then i had a flare and it showed in blood work and the rest is history. i don't live in that state any more but i was particular in drs when i moved to CO. I have several my family dr., my rheumy, my gastro, my pulmonary,and a physical therapist and a massage person and now having more problems and symptoms i need to pick a neurologist. not to mention only go to one pharmacy and make sure you think that the place you go is very competent.
my point is I make sure my doctors keep each other informed. I only get pain meds from one. I wish it was the olden days when i could go back to just my family dr. that knew me so well and just have one dr. I now feel like i need a secretary. Guys vote with your feet. see if there is a local support group and find who people around you think rocks. or get a list from your ins and write every single one down and call each office and get a feel for which one suits you best... it is sad that you have to be your own patient advocate these days. young drs. don't want to do narcotics, which makes sense in the case of an inflammatory disease except they can do something for pain that isn't narc. but you need to go to your appointment with a list. of all your concerns. make sure they get answered... if you have an idea run it by them.believe me.. I have. i am educated and worked as a dental hygienist so i do have some pharmacology knowledge so i do know and have research on my own what things i was willing to try. I am blessed to have finally found a group of drs. that i truly believe care about my quality of life. I am not saying that they don't get frustrated sometimes ..because i am a difficult case but i am grateful that i am in the United States where i do have some choice and there is medical care. I would hate to live in a country with socialized medicine because having a disease with no cure..well that would mean... no treatment... and worse than that live in a place like many countries in africa, medicine... heck you can't even get clean water... For whatever reason God's grace put me here. Our situations are not fun, not ideal, but we have the freedom to wish each other good health, to pray for each other in any religion we choose, and we can try to encourage each other. It is terribly sad that Dr.s get so afraid to treat in fear of a lawsuit because they have huge college loans to pay, and many want to get something for nothing because lawyers promote it and judges allow it, It boils down to integrity. People do not understand the meaning of it anymore, they don't even think it is important to teach it to their kids. Lying is even acceptable, we have had presidents that have admitted to smoking pot. seems mild right, wrong it was against the law. We as a nation need to start holding people to higher standards. The whole birth certificate game... you shouldn't even be able to put your name on a ballet with out producing it... political games on all sides and Americans accept it and that is the best we can do... Sad. Honor, dignity, Truth, I will never understand why it is acceptable to have overcrowded prisons 49,000 a year per inmate we let out early due to space. that is a persons income a year. criminals have more rights than innocent people. Our country needs more than prayer it needs a spanking. lol a big ol' wake up call you would have thought 9-11 would have done that. well i am obviously off subject and on a soap box.
Wishing you well ... better mental and physical health