Hi my name is Elva, I live in Anaheim California, I was diagnosed with lupus 2 months ago, it came to a suprise to me.... the only sympthom i had was always been fatigue... but since ive been diagnosed my whole body totally changed i went from been a happy person to been sad, depressed, and more tired then normal.... a month after my diagnosis i started feeling better... i had that living life to the fullest type of attitude but now im always tired... very sleepy... very dizzy i just want to throw up thats how i feel alllllll day.... also the major one is i feel like im out of breath i have to take a deep breath in order to feel like i have enough air in my lungs i dont know if its because i have had a stuffy nose for months but all these sympthoms are really stressing me out i feel like my body is giving out... once in a while ill have joint pain but when i do have its horrible.... i work at a doctors office and im constantly hot and sweating.....i feel like im falling apart...i dont know what to do....i do have 2 beautiful babies and im always happy around them but when im alone or at work i feel horrible.... my rheaumatologist doesnt seem to help much...i try to talk to him about
everything but he says ill be fine which i want to take his word but when i feel this bad i just want to lay down and sleep so i dont have to deal with anything.... but most of the time im a happy person i dont know if im going to flares or what it is all i know is that i feel sick

, there isnt that many people i can talk to...its hard for people i know to understand my condition its a constant struggle....