Please don't give up. I understand how you feel because I felt exactly the same way. For years. I came to realize that I am not lupus. Although I wasn't able to do the things I wanted, and felt that life was passing me by, I sought out emotional help from a good counselor, did my best to stay in a good mood and not burden my family any more than I had to, and I took very good care of myself. I believe that my lupus is now in remission. It can happen to you too.
I believe that those of us who have supportive families are so fortunate. I received so much moral support from this forum because the folks here really understand, and I felt welcome to complain and vent as much as I wanted.
Sending a big hug your way.
SLE, fibro, renauds, restless leg, hiatal hernia, double vision, migraines, costocondritis.
plaquenil, neurontin 1200mg, synthroid, spironolactone, actonel, niaspan, simcor, lunesta, cymbalta 90mg, norco 10, vitamin D, Calcium, Multi Vit. Fish Oil, low strength aspirin