Hey all thanks for the support. Teddtlove I'm sorry that things aren't going to well for you with your Mother. I'm sorry that she's dealing with paranoid thoughts, I'm sure it's very difficult on you. I hope things improve soon for you.
I really am struggling I'm in a huge flare and can barely walk on most days. I also believe I've broken my ribs on the left side again
. It hurts so bad I can't stand to even take a breath, and moving hurts so bad.
I'm going to get an X-ray this morning and see my primary Dr today. I did see my Rheumy yesterday, and he really didn't have a lot to offer me. He did say that I can stop decreasing my prednisone. I just really can't handle going ANY lower. He didn't increase it though and I'm not sure IF I can come out of my flare w/o increasing them.
He did have me increase the amount of injectable MTX I'm taking. He said if the oral surgeon says my mouth is healing I can resume giving myself injections. See the oral surgeon this afternoon. I took the last of my antibiotics this morning, so hopefully my mouth is looking well and I can try to stop this flare.
As for my family, well I guess I'm gonna just let the two of them do whatever they want. I feel with everything I'm dealing with, I just want some peace and quiet. I want to set things right with those who I've hurt in my past or present. I totally try to treat people kindly but I'm only humane and I'm making mistakes often in life. I certainly try not to intentionally hurt people. I just want to reconcile issues with friends and family before I die.
Not sure why I've had the life that I have, but I'm totally weary and just no longer have the energy to continue to fight on. The amount of pain I'm in has consumed me and coping with the multiple health issues have just become a HUGE burden to me. When I spend anywhere from 1-3 days per week at the Drs, it's just way way to much.
I pray that all of you can overcome your illness. It's terrible and unfair that we are left to suffer so. You are all in my thoughts and prayers and I hope that you all begin to feel better real soon. Thanks for your support.