I'm sorry the cataract has thrown you into a flare. I wondered about
the wisdom of such surgery before you had it, but I know you check and double-check with all your doctors beforehand, so I'd hoped you could come thru it without extra issues. Can you at least still see well from that eye?
Have they given you anything to help strengthen and heal the Achilles tendons? This is a condition that I am very familiar with; I can't imagine have both giving you trouble at once. One very simple thing is: As you are sitting, very gently lift your foot, toes first, leaving the heel on the ground. It looks like your foot is pointing up. If it hurts or you feel too much of a stretch up the back of your leg, stop. If you do this gently every time you think of it, it'll help before you know it.
The other thing is to apply ice if you've been out or done too much and the Achilles is throbbing. If you're like me, you hate applying ice, but it does help. Another thing, which may be too awkward for you to do, is to soak in a warm bath with Epsom Salts. This helps pull out the lactic acid which makes the soreness. Drinking lots of water also helps. (Sorry, no celebratory alcohols.)
Is it really worth trying to tell the difference between RA, Lupus joint pain, or Fibromyalgia? Unless you have different pain medications that work on different illnesses, I wouldn't worry about
it. And if you do have different effective meds, trial and error will tell you. Have you ever tried to match where the pain is with your activity or the weather? Sometimes that helps me figure out what is acting up.
As for how will you cope with it when your body is ready to die -- you are strong and brave, and you have faith that you'll be in a better place, and you will go gently into that good night. I know that to be a fact. I have been at bedside for a number of deaths, and no one has struggled at that point. Have you talked with your family about
how far you want to go with life? I mean in terms of breathing assistance, pain medications, that sort of thing? Maybe having a plan in place will help you calm your mind about
some of these frightening thoughts.
Are you eligible for any of the hospice programs, or does your Military Health Plan prohibit these? In some communities they provide some services quite early for chronic patients. Heck, now that they've identified your leukemia more fully, maybe that organization can provide some help. I know it's hard to let strangers in the house, but I don't mean for them to provide physical assistance (although driving you would be great). I'm thinking more of a friend to drop by every week or so -- a real person who can provide actual hugs.
I hate for you to occupy your mind only with these thoughts. If my life was more interesting I'd be calling you with updates more often! Today I'm thinking of my mother, who died 26 years ago today. Some years I don't think too much about
it, but this year it's on my mind since a friend just died this week. I think only now am I really beginning to realize how young, strong, and brave she was, and I wish I had known her better. But I know she'd want me to be out doing something, being happy, so that's what I'm trying to focus on today. Well, that wasn't much of a diversion, was it? Maybe I can find something more cheerful tomorrow.
Try to focus on the positive, my friend. Sometimes it's as simple as being glad the sun is shining, even when I don't feel like going out in it.
PS. No enjoying the sun today here, it's been raining for days and just started again! You know it's rained a bit too much when you have to pour the extra water out of the outside container plants! Hugs
Lynnwood, Lupus & Sjogren's ModeratorDIAGNOSING LUPUS & LUPUS RESOURCES
"Life is far too important to be taken seriously" - Oscar Wilde
Post Edited (Lynnwood) : 7/6/2013 11:35:22 AM (GMT-6)