that old fatigue and pain

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Date Joined Feb 2011
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   Posted 8/28/2013 9:22 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Everyone,
     This is a mini-vent.  I had been feeling pretty darned great this summer.  Even with the hospitalization at the end of May for Atrial Fibrillation and Knee surgery in June, I seemed to bounce back.  I had more energy and was experiencing another remission.  I kept telling myself "Maybe this is it!!!"  Well, I started back to work last week and this is the first week back with students.  I came home yesterday with the type of fatigue that you know is not the simple tiredness you get at the end of a long work day.  I promptly fell asleep on my husband while he was talking to me.  When I woke up, I felt foggy-headed and malaisy.  As the evening  wore on I became more fatigued and then the joint pain kicked in-hands, feet, hips.  With that came the profound sense of heaviness throughout my body.  To make a long story short, I was angry.  My husband tried to reason with me, but I was unreasonable.  I had had two months of bliss and was caught off guard...again.  Every time this happens, I get let down by my body.  And it frustrates me.  It really shows me how much work stress acts to trigger a flare...not always....but something about this week has brought it on.  Thankfully, I can up the Prednisone for a few days, which I know will help.  But I get so disappointed in myself for having to be dependent on these medications to keep my body in balance.  I felt icky today, but chose to go to work and now I am paying the price.  Sometimes I just wish this disease would disappear for good!!!
Thanks for hearing me out.
Love, Laura

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Date Joined Jul 2009
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   Posted 8/29/2013 12:18 AM (GMT -6)   
I understand that crushing feeling of feeling good for awhile then bam! It's back again. It's like that old folk song "The cat came back, we thought she was a goner, but the cat came back".

I get very few days of feeling okay. If the lupus isn't kicking my (you know what) then fibro is dancing around me. I miss working, but I know I couldn't handle any job right now.
Lupus, Fibromyalgia, Glaucoma, Asthma, Hypothyriodism, Sleep Apnea, OA, Depression, and Allergies

When life throws you lemons....
Pick them up and throw them right back at them! :))

Barbara Lee
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Date Joined Sep 2003
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   Posted 8/29/2013 2:01 PM (GMT -6)   

(((hugs))) I'm sorry that this has hit you again. It's just so unfair I know I feel for you and the rest that go through this profound ups and downs. I seem to never come out of a flare, I'm miserable 24/7 and then when I get bad I just feel worse than I did. I have to say I haven't had a good day since March 2005.

So, for me I don't go thru the getting upset like you do. You get yourself feeling good and then stress and you flare up, and then you get mad, frustrated, and hurt I"m sure. Disappointment is there also because it feels like our bodies just can't do it's job.

I hear ya Laura, when I first started to realize I may have lupus I worked a high stress job, and I made it a point to do things to help me relax. Are you able to go and get massages? Do you know how to do biofeedback and the deep breathing to take you away to a favorite place? Is there an activity that really relaxes you? I would suggest you find something that does this and try using it while you work thru the school year.

I'm not sure how you do it, I honestly don't know how I managed to work until August 2001. I've been sick with lupus since March of 1987. I sometimes think it's our sheer stubbornness not to give in to this disease, it takes and takes from us and our families all the time.

I just wish it would go away or they would find a cure for this stupid disease, but until that happens, all we can do is be here for each other and support each other. Laura my email is listed in my profile if you'd like to contact me I'll be happy to chat with you via email, skype, or on the phone. Maybe if you'd like to try the biofeedback I could be of some help. It's just an offer and I won't be offended if you do or don't contact me.

Just know that I'll send you all the prayers and support that I can towards you. I'm kinda low on energy myself but I'll send any extra that I can. I hope the prednisone helps and with it being a long weekend hopefully you'll be able to get plenty of rest.

Take care and let us know how you are doing.

DX- RA, Lupus, Fibro, LGL Leukemia, Pulmonary Hypertension, Bells Palsy, Gastroparsis, Blood Clots, Cateracts, Glaucoma, Chronic Pericarditis & Pleurisy, Severe Anemia. Way to many medications to list.

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Date Joined Feb 2011
Total Posts : 399
   Posted 8/29/2013 10:25 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey Barbara and Joy,
     Thanks for the feedback!!!  It feels so wonderful to have the support and words of wisdom.  I am feeling better today, although the arthralgia is still stout.  It doesn't help that I have been putting on weight with the Prednisone and Lopressor.  That seems to also make it difficult on my joints....and I am not that tall :).  I spent some time in the garden this early evening, which helped my state of mind.  Just being surrounded by my flowers and all of the lovely edibles brought a smile to my face.  We have been having unseasonably warm weather for this part of the north coast, so my tomatoes are thriving more than they ever had.  I also slowed my pace at work and that seemed to help.  People at work know about my Lupus and everyone has been pretty understanding.  In fact, I think that's what keeps me working.  At least I am not full time and that also fact I have a four day week-end and will use it to rekindle my emotional and physical spirit. 
I would love to talk to you Barbara.  What are good times to call??  I live in California, so if there is a time change, we'll need to consider that.
Love You All!!
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