First of all young lady...DONT compare yourself to your friends, or try not to at least. I think you are a very very lucky girl to have a b/f that has stuck by you despite your illness!!!
You must have an inner beauty that has captivated him.
LOL phoenix, getting undressed in the dark is pretty common, because lots of women have issues with their body images.
You have qualities that you cant see phoenix, because when people have terrible illnesses like we do, we focus on how bad we look, but if the tables were turned and it was your b/f, you would be looking wayyyyyyyyyy past that, if you love him the way he loves you. No one knows what the future holds for us (Thank God) and somewhere down the road there may be a treatment to help your body not retain so much fluid, but till then, just do what you can to make yourself feel better, and just remember, there is more to you than "looks" it's what's in your heart that matters, I'm just sorry that you have to go through this at 21, but what doesnt kill us ..makes us stronger..or so they tell me
Glad you felt at ease enough to post, I just hope what I said, helps you. I just know others will have lots to say too.
A/Fib, diagnosed Aug, 1997, R/A diagnosed in Sept. 1998, Pericarditis and Lupus in Dec, 2003, Diabetes, diagnosed march, 2004
sotalol, digoxin, coumidin, plaquenil, prednisone, metformin, diamacron, wellbutrin,fenofibrate