I know where you are coming from,I started using emu oil for stretch marks though mine are from pregnancy,and find it certainly makes a difference.
I feel embarrassed to change or bathe with my husband in the room..it is very tough,but ,yes,your mate is there, thick or thin,and loves you-I am still trying to wrap my head around that as well(for how I think I look).
as for your attractive friends,that I can identify with as well.Though weight was never an issue,I once was a model and now too have stretch marks,and ''issues''. I have discoid lupus on my face and eye,and it is very difficult,I have asked my husband in a fit of tears,''how can you love me ?'' easily he replied,because you are still you,it is the person I love ,not how you picture yourself to be''....
it is the hardest thing to overcome,how we perceive ourselves,....I think it is hard when someone asks ''what is going on,etc''
this is my story:
I was a model.I lost my locks during chemo.My weight plunged.I looked at pictures of how I once looked and felt shame. I had stretch marks due to pregnancy and veins all over my legs-and lost my pittyfull small breasts along the way ,due to weight loss,etc....I was proud fo how I looked,then it was taken from me.....I had a former friend say,((omg!,look at you,what happened to your hair,what happened to your shape,you look like crap!! -as she laughed-I was devastated and after she was done making fun,I realized something,she wasn't my friend afterall)) My husband still loves me,still needs me,and is still proud of me.
Your man still feels the same way,he is still there. we are stronger-just like someone said(Babs?).
Keep your head held HIGH,you ARE worth it,beauty IS only skin deep.
love is love-and it runs deep-
I ,we,understand what this ,and other diseases do,but we are all the same under our skin,we still live,laugh,and cry,and no matter what religion,background or skin color,we are one.
I feel so hurt that you feel so hurt,I wish I could take your pain darling,I really do..........as for the ''super models'',they have their vanity too,you were still the hottest babe in the joint-ask your man! He'll tell you,you are not a shrunken violet,you are the ''perennial'',you can stand the test of time and still be as beautiful as ever,and more so! Each year you are more and more beautiful.
I heard,''what the Good Lord has forgotten,you stuff with cotton!''
(my case-thank God for padded bras!)
look up the song ''Beautiful'' (christina aguilera)...you are beautiful ,and am sending best wishes,thoughts and prayers xxxooo
(sorry to give my part -story,but think I see where you are coming from,sorry to seem like it was about me-not intended-I can feel how precious and beautiful you are-don't doubt it,weight and shoe size are numbers,) Take care hun,hope to hear from you soon,and give your man a hug!x0 crystal