As many of you know I have liver problems and it is critical I lose weight. I'm also on a strict low carb diet which is due to a metabolic disorder related to my liver. When I go over 185, which puts me at obese, my liver enzymes skyrocket and I get sick and gain more and more weight due to my liver not working right, it just seems to snowball.
My bf wants deserts and my son and it is so hard for me. I've told them not to let me have any, but then I've been bad and eaten it anyway. Not much, not enough that it should be effecting my weight so drastically but it is. I really restrict my carbs and have to get back down to 12 grams for a while which means eating just meat and salad and one slice of bread or bowl of high fiber oatmeal or something. I'm usually really strong, but lately its like not even me saying yes to this stuff. Its just automatic. My bf says he doesn't care how much weight he gains, he's going to eat what he wants, but he does really hard physical work and is in shape, relatively. My son is so skinny I want to give him cheesecakes every day. he's very fit.
I have two barriers to exercise and since it does so little to burn calories compared to how much you have to do, I don't do much. I have exercise induced asthma, hypoxemia--lack of oxygen, fibro, chronic fatigue and bad chronic pain and limitations due to spinal surgeries and problems. My knees are bad and swell and get heat. It seems the more I exercise, the worse I feel.
Does anyone have any answers, tricks, words of strength, something? If I can get down to the low carbs and stay on it long enough I wont crave them anymore, I went for a few years without sweets, but I can't seem to get back down to where I was. It just seems like so much work, different food for me, and I'm so sick of it. I know I must do it but I tell myself I don't care, I can get away with it just this once. And to top it off, my diabetic dad whose sugar is outof control, brought me and him a birthday cake and tempted me alot to eat it. I pushed it away once, but everyone made me feel like I was a party pooper. I hate diabetes, I hate my liver. I wish I was skinny again. I'm worried because there is a 20 year window I may be in, I'd be 15 years down the line, so in five years I could really have serious, serious problems. I think I've been fed up because I work so hard to keep my liver ok and lose weight and can't and lately its just been getting worse no matter what I do. I'm afraid to see the hepatologist because he will yell at me again about my weight. I'm ready to ask for medically necessary weight loss documentation so I can get medicare to help me lose weight but at 190 I'm not heavy enough. I need some help with this. Any ideas?
Also, can my pain meds be causing me to gain weight? They make you constipated and maybe you absorb more than you normally would. Maybe fiber? I'm trying to avoid gluten as well as things that irritate my chronic bladder condition. Its a nightmare. I'm really scared now. I've worked so hard and made virtually no progress and am in more pain and harder to exercise than ever.