I also want to welcome you to the forum! While I was reading Hippi's reply to your post, I identified with everything she said. When I read your post, it could have been written by me three years ago.
I'm 58 and have had lupus symptoms for years, but three years ago it hit me as though I had crashed into a brick wall. I was diagnosed and put on meds, including high doses of prednisone, and that's another story. The meds can wreck havock on your body. My kids are all grown and I as well have overcome some pretty rough bumps along the way, including a couple of malignancies, deaths, and the things that happen to us when we're lucky enough to live to middle age. It has taken me until recently to really accept the disease and my current limitations. I think you'll understand, but right now I'm not feeling too well and am too tired to write too much, but I wanted you to know that you're not alone. One of the things that has helped me reach a sense of peace with my lupus has been this forum. It has absolutely been a lifesaver and what I describe as my new family.
I'm glad you've joined us and hope you'll become a part of this wonderful group of people who will be there for you and help you along the way. You may find that there's also a lot of healing in being able to give back a little to others here who need your support. I know I have gained so much from the give and take here.
I haven't given up and know that one day I'll come out of this three year flare and be back to my old, albeit older and slower, self. It sounds like you and I have a great deal in common.
Hang in there.
Lupus, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Sjogren's, osteoarthritis, fibro, ibs, renauds, restless leg, hiatal hernia, double vision, migraines.
cellcept, neurontin, prednisone, plaquenil, synthroid, triamterene, tramadol, actonel, tri-est, imitrex, cymbalta, multivitamin, calcium w vit D, fish oil, aspirin