I think the stress of ending a trusted relationship with your Rheumatologist, skin cancer removal and your projects are screaming for you to take it easy. I know the projects are extra things that you do, but you seem to be a person of excellence which means, if you are going to do it then it will be right. It will get done. You still have clarity and a great attitude.
The last few weeks have been terrible. My parents wanted for me to go with them on a very nice long vacation at no cost to me and I was unable to go. Can't imagine a trip down the road. I felt guilty and anxious, but thankfully my mom cancelled the trip and said we will go if and when she sees significant improvement.
Last night, I made a mistake with my seven day tray and took my AM meds in the very early morning hours. Prednisone, etc. Wide awake until 4:30 until I discovered the mistake. I just could not believe it! I have not left the house, almost quite literally for weeks. I try to excercise, but literally sit and keep thinking I will get moving soon. Just too exhausted. I did the hair thing, but at home, good hair day for no one to see!
I have two places I need to have checked on my face for skin cancer, looking forward to the greasy face!
You have also just jogged my mind that I need to file my taxes! Thank you. After reading everyones words to encourage you, I agree, get your doctors file, shower once or twice, and then take it easy.
I also was encouraged to see that everyones response had such a thread of similarity, that I don't feel like I am the only one with such unique struggles. I have the big seven day pill trays and can relate to what someone wrote about the last day being the worst becasue you have to start over. Chasing down prescriptions, reload for a few weeks. During that time I usually get irritated thinking about how many and how much money I have swallowed! "Medical PMS" It takes me about five or six hours to get it done!
My mom thinks the challenges of losing such a tremendous doctor and feeling medically orphaned until finding a new one is in part causing my flare. Just can't believe it. I saw my file and made the mistake of looking at it. I still can't believe after all of this time that I have SLE/Sjogrens. Does anyone else go through that?
You are very much appreciated on this forum, I am not on it much but it is evident! Take care of yourself. Yes, getting your hair done is a nice lift, I hope you like it! Above all else, we are still women.