I sure understand what you mean by happiest AND saddest. It would be like closing the door on our old, healthy body. *sniffle sniffle* And yet, it provides much needed assistance in caring for ourselves. I don't imagine that I'll ever need that type of assistance, but it is sure nice to know it is there if it ever becomes necessary. I did, though, receive SS death benefit when my husband and father of oldest two children died at age 25. I remember getting the first check and the check which represented all the back pay they owed . . . I was desperate to receive this money and yet, when it came in the mail, I wanted to burn the checks. It felt like I was trading money for dh. . . . . I actually had to wait to cash those first two checks because it made me ill. Somehow, when I found a bank and cashed them to
open an account, the lady that helped me seemed to be sent from heaven. She was a super sweet lady who didn't need to say a word, but seemed to understand the pain it caused to finally cash those checks. . . . she was a little gift from God.
I hope that it gives you extra energy now that you don't have to fret about
the government's decision whether or not to approve your disability. Thanks for sharing your story . . . there are several here waiting a very long time for some good news like that.
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