Thanks redrose, HE'S HOME!!! He came home last night and tonight. Now he wants to move out and quit school and live with another "buddie" and his girlfriend and her kids in another poor area. He was thinking he would take his car my dad is selling him and I have registered in my name and have paid insurance on and take it with him. I told him he had to reregister it and get his own insurance before he leaves with it. Really, he should finish paying off my dad, but I will leave that between them. He is so niave. He wants to quit school, get a crap job, so he has money to go to the mall and movies and drink and do whatever else he shouldn't be doing. I got him straightened out at the courthouse, they really screwed up and at least he isn't "wanted". Part of me just knows this is the beginning of a bad thing, quitting school and just scraping by with other goof offs like him. He said school is too hard, he doesn't understand what the professors say, its a load of crap, he just doesn't want to. I don't know. I see my bright and shiny boy that was so proud of his great grades and was so smart and responsible and proud of going to school just feeling like his life is over and there is nothing more for him than work, inebriation, and others to keep him on the path. If he moves out, I'm like stuck holding the bag, in a place I don't care to live in alone more or less, far from my old friends and other family, just sitting here for what reason? I don't know. My older son is so far away, in mass. and I never see him. Sometimes I dream I lived nearby and we would meet and have coffee once in a while. I just hate this. All I ever wanted was family and mine is just shattered to bits. I am so jealous of people who have their family around them, they don't know how lucky they really are. Thank you so much for understanding. I do have good docs here, by a stroke of luck because they aren't from here. And soon my area will be overtaken by northerners so it may seem like home someday. I shouldn't complain. I have a great place to live that is cheap and I dont have to worry about
someone raising the rent or anything. The holidays are always hard on me. I hope you are doing ok. I hate how they start christmas earlier every year. I don't know what my son will do. I think his friends just want more money and a babysitter for the kids. I don't think my son will be ok there. He misses his doctor appts and his attitude is that "if I miss them, oh well, I'm doing the best I can" but he isn't really. He could have more help.
Now, I miss the midwest so so bad, but it has gotten expensive to live there and the winters are cold. But still, I dream of going back so much. If I won the lottery, I'd be gone back, my son with me.
--Doctors are men who prescribe medicines of which they know little, to cure diseases of which they know less in human beings of whom they know nothing.--Voltaire (1694-1778)
Ills--Sjogrens-Lupus-like AI Disease, Hashis, Vitiligo, spinal stenosis/fusion with plate, salivary/lymphectomies, Diabetes, NAFLD, COPD, RLS, neuropathy, trigonitis, hystero, diffuse brain atrophy
Meds--Plaquenil, Evoxac, Metformin, Synthroid, HCTZ, Estradiol patch, Prosed, Klonopin, Soma, Ultram, Vicodin, Restasis, Albuterol,steroid injections, Protopic & Triamcinolone Acetonide ointments