Hello everyone...i have been an emotional mess all weekend. I cried friday night and today 3 times cause i just dont feel good and want to be myself again also i am pmsing so this doesnt help the emotiona. I hate this diseases so much. I hate being on meds...i hate being tired all the time.and as much sleep i get i am still tired..i hate my knees hurting...i hate stepping all over my words and not remembering small details and studdering..i hate my head feeling messed up..i hate being irritable....i hate being dehydrated....itchy....now my tips of my fingers are peeling and now 2 of my fingers formed blisters and i peeled off the skin... i dont know what this is all about.
I try to fight this disease and say that i am not going to let it run my life but some days it does and i cant help it...I dont feel like i am getting better at all but i guess i got to be patient. I know someone hat has lyme and they found out this summer was on meds for a month and now off of them and say they are fine...they still have knee pain and tired but this person has very bad knees and always tired from working 2 jobs...now why is she recovering quick and much much older than me while i suffer. i wokr about 40 hrs a week and my job is very physicle and its killing me but i have no choice but I feel like i am not going to get better if i over do it but i also dont want this to run my life. i dont know if i should take some time out of work or not. But i would go nuts being at home all the time and i need the money....
thanks for listening....
"I will not let Lyme controll my life i will controll my own life"
lyme since June 08
meds-zithromax 500mg one a day/ 1 month // Plaquenil 200mg twice a day/ 1 month
starting 10/3 doxy100mg // omnicef 300mg
ADHD/anxiety/depression// celexa 20mg